It’s been a long while
It’s been a long while and all the while a long and tumultuous road. There have been ups and there have been downs (mostly downs) and yet, the old adage holds true: life goes on. I’m left to wonder what drives people to go on. There have been times (and please forgive this bit of emo, it’s just an integral part of what makes me work apparently) when I would wonder if this was all worth it; this drive to finish school at any cost, to work myself into an exhaustive wreck, to spend nights by myself in lonely solace. Sometimes I would wonder if there were any ways to end it all that wouldn’t immediately damn my soul to whatever hell is in store for the takers of their own lives. And yet, day after day I continue to get out of bed and perform the daily routine (grind) in a perpetual cycle of boredom and stagnancy. There has to be a purpose. I refuse to believe that the majority of us human beings are simply here to exist, to grow into adulthood and fade away into compost without impacting their surroundings in some profound way. I realize I’m a bit young to actually know what my purpose in this world is but, and this is a stretch of optimism, I’m hoping that one day I’ll figure it out. I’m just hoping that when that day comes, all of my preparation will have been for the right thing.
Or maybe I’m just hoping that there will be a zombie apocalypse sometime in the near future.
And on that note, life goes on.
